Halfway: Moments That Sadden and Gladden

By Christine Norvell

This time of year seems to both sadden me and lighten my heart. In the school year, I grow sad because I realize that my time of influence with my students is even shorter. Only months remain, not an entire school year. Yet I’m grateful for a two-week reprieve. Not seeing each other for a time does help us appreciate each other more. I get to be a full-time mom in person for more than a few hours at a time. I’m not thinking of work to-do lists, which parent to call, which student to encourage, which grade to update, which meeting to attend, which article to prepare. In the natural, my focus shifts.

I have a feeling many of us have these halfway points whether in the course of the natural calendar, the work world, or in the spiritual sense.

So what is it that makes a halfway point so poignant?

First, it’s a blend of a sense of accomplishment and an understanding that more remains to be done. Oh, I can see that more work lies ahead, but I can also see that some things have come to completion, and it’s not really because of me. If I see myself as God’s creation, then I know “my” accomplishments are not my own. He is working through me.

In Hebrew, this word work means something that God has made or done. This is the same word used in the Genesis account, things that are created like ourselves. In the same way, as His created, we “bless the Lord, all his works, in all places of his dominion. Bless the Lord, O my soul!” (Psalm 103:22). We praise Him for what He has created, that’s us, and we praise Him for the works He creates through us. Psalm 90:17 reiterates: “Let the favor of the Lord our God be upon us and establish the work of our hands upon us; yes, establish the work of our hands!” Another way to read this within the context of the Hebrew meaning is “Let the beauty of God be upon us, and let the active work of our God be firm in us, so that our active work would be firm as well.”

It’s really a simple idea. As I walk with God, the act of creation through my hands is like His act of creation. I am creating and working because I am in His image. And I am thankful that He chooses me to create and work.

Secondly, this halfway point is poignant because I have time to reflect. If I truly reflect—turn back and look again—I will hopefully see both my successes and failures and even moments that are neither. James 3:13 asks “Who is wise and understanding among you? By his good conduct let him show his works in the meekness of wisdom.” In the Greek, work here means work that completes an inner desire or purpose. I hope I’m honest with myself, especially in the meekness category. I admit that my reflection often turns negative, yet that doesn’t imply something horrible or discouraging. These are moments to renew purpose especially if the fall semester didn’t go as I had hoped or planned. I intentionally think of which students I have truly helped, where relationship is strong, and yet I now have the time to consider how to better help those I didn’t connect as well with. I’m often disappointed with myself for things I’ve said or situations I didn’t handle with wisdom, but I know I’m learning alongside my students, and God is with me. As I reflect, I once again grow thankful.

And that may just be my point. I’m only halfway. Things aren’t finished. I’m unfinished, but I’m thankful. “I give thanks, O Lord, with my whole heart..On the day I called, you answered me, my strength of soul you increased…for the Lord will fulfill his purpose for me. Do not forsake the work of your hands” (Psalm 138:1,3,8).

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